don't mind me, i'll be normal again soon

[evergleam]

It's been such a long day and I feel like crapola and I really shouldn't have made the mistake of calling my grandmother. I wanted to talk to my grandfather, because he's not been doing so well the last few days and I'm worried about him. And she tells me my mother hasn't called since Monday night and makes her out to be a horrible person. Because she didn't call yesterday. Because she hasn't called today. Do you know what today is? It's my mother's birthday. Why can't can't she call her own daughter on her birthday? Why should my mother call down there, or get yelled at for not calling? I hate having to rely on her to go to school. I hate that I'm in debt to her. I hate that I can't do this on my own.

It sounds stupid, but I've had a really stressful day, and my grandfather isn't doing well, and things just haven't been turning out the way I thought they should and tomorrow is freakin September 11th, and I just don't know if I have the strength for all of this crap at once.

I need a hug. And sleep. And food. I'm going to go take care of at least two of those things right now.

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[emulsion-lift.livejournal.com]

i think we're just pulling out of a pretty rocky month ourselves. no fun at all.