i can't take it i can't take it ahhhhh

I know you've heard this song. You wanna know how I feel right now? I feel like this song. Calm and screaming all at the same time.

( The Twistinside )

That last shred of sanity I'm clinging to is growing smaller by the hour.

I'm being cryptic cause that's better than whining. I guess.

I was told today I have no heart. I think he was kidding, but I'm not so sure. I am awfully mean to a lot of people. A lot of the time.

Also, I was going to do that meme where I list 10 favorite shows and you guess which are my favorite characters from each show, but then I noticed that all of my favorite characters, every single one of them, represent some ideal of maleness that is virtually unattainable. Some kind of fictionalized perfection in my warped little brain. And honestly, not even because the characters are perfect--more often than not they have Serious Issues. Anyway, I didn't do the meme cause the implications bother me a little bit. Also because I was spending too much time thinking about something else that doesn't matter.

I have to write. My professor is going to kill me tomorrow.