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How do you deal when that familiar pang washes over you, and you really need to keep from showing any kind of emotion?

Me? I bite the inside of my lip until I can taste it. Hard. Sometimes my tongue.

Good things about tonight, though? Watched the South Park movie with Chris (which I was carded for when buying last night! Because I look like a 16-year-old. :P) while eating Ben & Jerry's. Also, I watched the random boys in my suite throw oranges at one another and fend each other off with foam rubber bats. Which is mostly funny because I know them.

It seems I will be taking the metro in tomorrow to meet up with my uncle and see Reagan's casket, possibly in the procession. Not sure how I feel about this, but he really wanted me to go for some reason. I think he's lonely, plus he was a history minor. Not so much with the Republican, though. So I'm doing that right after work. Oh joy, rush hour traffic. Have I ever mentioned how much I HATE the beltway? Cause I do. It better not rain.

I want to go to sleep but I don't think I'm tired enough and I know I told my roommate it was okay if her fiancee stayed over but right about now I'm really wishing I hadn't and it's so hot in here and I wish I were alone so I could sleep without my pajamas on and whyohwhy do I have to be the only one in my suite with a roommate?

When am I gonna see that pretty face again?

Are my entries coming across as jumbled and incoherent as I think lately? Cause everything in my brain feels so fragmented, and I feel like I can't carry on a regular conversation lately and still make sense, let alone write things down about what I'm doing or thinking.

I'm liking this babysitting sidejob thing more and more, though. Little kids are cute when I can give them back at the end of the night. And, while he's a little boy who's rambunctious and way too hyper for me to keep up with, he's kinda cute. And blows me kisses when I'm leaving. :) And watches Veggie Tales with me. Oh yes. ;)

I should go to bed or at least turn off the lights or something. My roommate and her fiancee are weird. They just went to bed without saying anything, and left the bright overhead light on, and my music's still going and stuff. So now I feel like the ass. I really need to not have a roommate again soon.
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